Suicide Squad star and model, Cara Delevigne, has revealed how she lost her virginity at age 18 after she stopped taking anti-depressants.
Talking to Esquire during a naked photo shoot, Cara spoke about taking anti-depressants from the age of 16 which, rather than help, actually made her feel worse.
After two years on the medication she came to realise that she didn’t want to take the pills anymore and came off them, which allowed her to ‘feel things again’, The Mirror reports.
That week, I lost my virginity, I got into fights, I cried, I laughed. It was the best thing in the world to feel things again.
And I get depressed still, but I would rather learn to figure it out myself than be dependent on meds, ever.
I hate meds. I don’t agree with them. It’s so easy to abuse them.
Despite Cara coping well with her mental health issues now, it’s important to remember that she struggled for years with suicidal thoughts, which is why she was prescribed anti-depressants in the first place.
Speaking about this dark period in her life, she said all she wanted to do was ‘die’ because of the pressure she felt to do well at school and make her parents proud, despite understanding she lived a privileged life.
When it got to being a teenager, and all the hormones and the pressure and wanting to do well at school, I had a mental breakdown
I was suicidal. I couldn’t deal with it any more. I realised how lucky I was and privileged I was, but all I wanted to do was die.
I felt so guilty because of that and hated myself because of that, and then it’s a cycle.
I didn’t want to exist anymore. I wanted for each molecule of my body to disintegrate. I wanted to die.
Thankfully, Cara now lives a happier life with her girlfriend St Vincent and is in a much better place mentally.
If you’ve struggled with mental health problems similar to Cara please contact the Samaritans on 116 123 (UK) or visit their website.