Three years on from the disturbing murder of Reeva Steenkamp, her killer, Oscar Pistorius, has revealed just exactly how he killed the model in a harrowing TV interview.
Recounting the steps he took in February 2013, the Paralympian champion gave a thorough and distressing account of how he shot Reeva numerous times and how he then found her in the bathroom, reports the Daily Mail.
Hearing something peculiar in his home, the 29-year-old claims that he did not know Reeva was in the bathroom, but that he thought she was in bed beside him and that their house was being intruded.
So he grabbed a gun and started to look around.
I’m petrified at this point I don’t want to stick my arm out if they can grab my arm, I just don’t have the balance to align the firearm.
At this point I see the windows open. These things are running through my head…the window has just been opened, the door has just slammed. It’s the middle of the night. Reeva is right next to me in bed.
I’ve got to stand there until we get help; until somebody comes, because I can’t go back to Reeva and then expose her and expose myself.
I’m hiding behind the toilet entrance wall. I can see the toilet door – I don’t know if it’s one person. All I know is there’s somebody in my house. And all of a sudden I hear a noise, at the toilet.
I presumed it was the toilet door opening and before I knew it I’d fired four shots.
Pistorius then claimed he realised that Reeva was, in fact, not in bed beside him like he had thought just moments before.
He then proceeded to break down the bathroom door with a cricket bat.
I opened the toilet door and immediately when I saw Reeva she was over the toilet. She’d slumped over the toilet. And at that point I knew that I’d killed her. I knew that she was dead. And I went down on my knees and pulled her onto me.
I just see blood and it’s just blood everywhere. It’s just blood everywhere. So much blood. And I don’t know what to do.
I try and pick her up. I’m trying to pick her up but there’s so much blood I can’t stand up. And I thought Reeva had started breathing, so I had my fingers in her mouth and I was trying to give her mouth to mouth, but there was so much blood.
I did take Reeva’s life and I have to live with that.
I can smell the blood. I can feel the warmness of it on my hands. And to know that that’s your fault, that that’s what you’ve done.
Pistorius was appearing on an ITV program in an attempt to show his remorse, apparently, despite being unable to give evidence in court due to being too ‘anxious and depressed’.
The sprinter, nicknamed the Blade Runner, also spoke of how Reeva would want him to be free so that he could ‘help the less fortunate’.
I don’t want to go back to jail; I don’t want to have to waste my life sitting there. If I was afforded the opportunity of redemption I would like to help the less fortunate like I had in my past.
I would like to believe that if Reeva could look down upon me that she would want me to live that life.
The South African athlete also said that if he was sent back to jail he would not survive and would prefer to do 10-years for culpable homicide.
Oscar Pistorius: The Interview is on ITV on Friday at 9pm.