August Ames’ Suicide Note Found In Car Doesn’t Mention Cyberbullying
Porn star August Ames did not mention the offensive comments she received online prior to her death in her suicide note.
The adult entertainer, 23, was discovered in a public car park early Tuesday morning, having left a note in her car.
The Ventura County Medical Examiner’s report found that Ames apologised to her family but didn’t mention the cyberbullying that was believed to have been a contributing factor in her death, The Blast says.
She had previously been embroiled in a Twitter debate after saying she had refused to sleep with a fellow porn actor because he’d done scenes with other men.
Ames – real name Mercedes Grabowski – was slated as ‘homophobic’ and told by one user to ‘take a cyanide pill’.
Her husband, porn director Kevin Moore described August as ‘the kindest person I ever knew’ and that ‘she meant the world to me.’
In the weeks leading up to her passing, she revealed in a podcast:
It’s just awful. It’s still recent where I have to keep myself occupied or else I start thinking about all s**t and then I fall into depression.
Some days I’ll be fine and if I’m not doing anything I’ll get these awful flashbacks of my childhood and I get very depressed and I can’t get out of bed and cancel scenes for like a week or two.
I would get in contact with some people and then I would feel badly because they’d be like: ‘What’s your profession?’ and I’d be like: ‘Oh, I’m in the adult industry.’
Then I’d feel like they’re like: ‘Oh, that’s the whole reason that you are the way you are’ and then I’d get turned off.
What a tragic turn of events this has been.